the last 2 1/2 years have been extremely stressful.
while the rest of the world was dealing with covid, i was also dealing with cancer.
in fact it seems none of my doctors knew about it.
Thank you everyone. I am still recovering from the pneumonia. The coughing gets worse at night. Which is why I am still up trying not to cough a lung out.
I run out of energy frequently during the day so still need plenty of rest breaks. But each day is a wee bit better than the last
the last 2 1/2 years have been extremely stressful.
while the rest of the world was dealing with covid, i was also dealing with cancer.
in fact it seems none of my doctors knew about it.
The last 2 1/2 years have been extremely stressful. While the rest of the world was dealing with Covid, I was also dealing with cancer. My first surgery in April 2020, was one of the last surgeries before they closed all non-emergency surgeries due to the number of people entering the hospital due to Covid. In fact, my surgery was on the last day and only one of 3 that day.
It was terrifying to go into the hospital knowing that catching covid was a possibility. I had no idea what to expect. And because of covid I had to go in alone and for the few days I was there, I was not allowed any visitors. But I got through it and came out of the hospital laughing and joking and pretending the world was fine. And although I knew cancer was there I ignored it. Years of trauma had taught me all about the powers of denial and I used every bit of denial I could to get through the next few months.
Chemo side-effects were so bad they had to stop and start it several times and eventually gave up because of how hard it was on my body. The really weird thing though, was that I had been through so much physical pain and trauma in my life that the chemo didn't seem so bad to me. The doctors disagreed and it was stopped.
Then, covid threw another wrench into my life. I did not get the normal follow-up tests, usually every three months. I didn't get a check up for a year. And got hammered again with cancer that had spread to my upper right lung. Denial wasn't going to get me through this. reality was hitting home hard. On the advice of a surgeon and my oncologist I had the upper right lobe of my lung removed as well as a section of the middle lobe. Like the first time they got the tumor out but they warned me that others too small for the tests to see might be lurking so I will continue with tests every 3 months.
About 2 weeks later I was having problems breathing and had to return to the hospital. They kept me for observation over night. Before they released me the next morning a doctor asked me what they were going to do about the tumor in my lower left lung.
I had no idea what she was talking about. No one had said anything. In fact it seems none of my doctors knew about it. They only reason this doctor found it was because someone had gone back and actually looked at the previous CT scan and compared it to the scan taken the night before. The previous person to write the report after he checked the scans had failed to mention the new tumor. No one knew. Thank goodness that I had gone to the hospital and someone had compared the 2 scans instead of simply relying on the report.
But I was in shock. Denial wasn't going to work anymore. Angry that it had been missed. And scared that a third go-round might kill me. I became depressed. Didn't want to get up, or dressed. I had to force myself to do normal things. I underwent radiation this time, refusing to let them take out another piece of my lungs. I was having enough problems breathing. No guarantees with radiation though. Maybe it will work and maybe it won't. And if new ones pop up then keep burning my lungs.
I forced myself back into my garden as a way to see something positive in my life. I had not seen my family in over 2 years. And at times felt like I would never seen them again before I died. The last few weeks have been very hard.
Two weeks ago I got pneumonia. With a hospital swamped with patients, they gave me antibiotics and sent me home. Fine with me. I wasn't in the mood to sit with a lot of people who might add to my health problems. The meds helped and I am doing better every day.
Today I spoke with my radiation oncologist. After 28 very long and challenging months I finally have a positive report.
NO SIGN OF CANCER ANYWHERE.
I am relieved. This is not to say there isn't anything lurking in there. Some tumors might be too small to appear on the tests. Future testing will find them if they are there.
But right now, today there is no sign of cancer in my body.
It will take a while for this to settle in. I have been living with it so long now that it seems it will never go away. And really that is how most cancer survivors think. It can always start up again.
But for today there is no sign of cancer.
Thank you to all of you who have supported me. Photos of chocolates, images to make me smile and cheer me up, and words of encouragement. They have all meant more than I can say.
Thank you. I'm still here.
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this is a hard one for me to write and words can't describe my frustration in seeing this.
from wbko news: .
bowling green, ky. (wbko) - bowling green police have arrested two people on multiple charges following a rape.. police say the victim told them she was kidnapped, raped, and assaulted.. police also say the rape was recorded by a man named colton hogendorn, who was arrested after police found him on 25 chestnut street.. hogendorn is charged with rape first degree, kidnapping, strangulation, assault, sodomy, and video voyeurism.. police also arrested chessa manion, who was present during the events, and arrested and charged with complicity to the same charges.. both were taken to the warren county regional jail.. .
There are three very strong reasons why some previous victims become perpetrators. One is mentioned above.
Just like all of us, victims can become under the influence of some pretty unhealthy people. Whether that is in a group or with an individual the controls are the same. Unless we learn what those are, we remain susceptable to the crazies around us everywhere.
Think of it as switched addictions. We learn to sacrifice who we are for the rules of another person or group. What I read of the article was that she did not participate but was present. For all we know she could have been tired up and forced to watch. But even if she was being "forced" to watch she was present.
While victims are being abused (as children) they learn to go to another place in their heads. They freeze because as a child they don't have a lot of choices. Fighting or running away are pretty much not going to happen. So they freeze. In that dissociative state they cannot think about what is happening. They think about anything else except being there. The more often they are abused the stronger the dissociation so they do what they are told and block out what is happening. Not the same as forgetting. Some do and others don't.
As they get older dissociating becomes a way to deal with anything you don't like. Just space out and pretend whatever is happening isn't really happening at all. So in a situation like this it is possible for the person to stand there, perhaps follow simple instructions and really ignore what she is seeing. She becomes incapable of taking appropriate actions and protecting the new victims.
There is another option and this one is frequent with male victims but rare with women but it does happen.
Abusing another person is a way to get the power you didn't have as a child. Remember sexual assault on anyone is not about the sex. it is about power. The man clearing wanted power and was using someone else to get it. If he was also controlling Chessa he doubles the power he is stealing from others. If she is participating in any way then she too is trying to capture power from the victim and align herself with the male abuser. In cases where women become sexual abusers there is often other mental health issues stemming from previous abuse but possibly other issues as well.
I would pretty much assume the male abuser was also a victim as a child. These are NOT excuses. They are possible explanations for behavior.
i am surprised no one has mentioned what is going on in canada.. maybe they have but i missed it.
so here are some of the facts as i know them.
ontario only.. sault st. marie had their six congregations whittled down to two.
The Aylmer Assembly Hall is still being used. My neighbor goes to it. it just reopened after covid
Heaven Sorry to read about your Dad
i notice now that ops have a "share this" in the upper right hand corner.
i know how to do it on fb, how do we do it here?.
Mine opened a Facebook page to make the post
blondie, it's so nice to hear from you after a two year break.
i didn't notice your return 10 days ago.
i'm so excited to read all your new posts.. i hope life has treated you well over the last two years.. i think about you every now and then and others do as well.
Thank you Beth Sarim and Listener
blondie, it's so nice to hear from you after a two year break.
i didn't notice your return 10 days ago.
i'm so excited to read all your new posts.. i hope life has treated you well over the last two years.. i think about you every now and then and others do as well.
I didn’t realize you had left until you posted about it. So welcome back to you too
yesterdays wt study (wt january 2022) stressed the issue, to set aside time to deepen the relationship to god.. in order to strengthen one`s faith, it was encouraged to ask god anytime for basically anything.
and each time god answers your prayers the faith grows.. now, each one of us has wishes, desires, hopes.
some naturally will fail, some will come true.
I was 10 when I started praying for God to help me stop my father from abusing me. Well that didn't work. I actually walked into a police station and reported him - 60 years ago. The police arrested him. Now some people would say that God gave me the strength to do it. No I don't think so.
Later I prayed for help to stop my step-father. Well that one didn't work either. My mother caught him with me and put me in foster care and kept him. Nice new JW studying family. Well I suppose some might say God made her walk in and catch him.
A few years later I was praying again for my elder husband to stop abusing me. That didn't work either until I left him and the JWs.
I see a definite theme here. God did not intervene. Not ever. It was always me that had to do it. Not as a child and not as a JW wife.
OK I will roll my eyes and some might say God DID help.
Well he isn't exactly helping me now with the cancer. Personally I think he should be doing more important things; stop wars, deal with famine, would be good places to start but I don't exactly see any god helping with any of that. God seems to be willing to watch women, children and babies be slaughtered in different parts of the world and god sits and does nothing.
Even my children were young they called social services for friends who were being abused.
If kids can do something to protect the innocent why can't any god do it?
having noted in the last 3 days a romour of a new revisal of the nwt etc i thought i would see if i have all the nwts in my collection:.
1. christian greek scriptures.
4. job- song of solomon.
Wikipedia has this list of Bibles published by the WTS:
The Watch Tower Society also acquired publishing rights for the following Bible translations:
